Maybe I should copy Anna's post regarding her ideal parents…
I should make this simple.. I don’t want to cry.. hehe (labo?!)

Hmm..
Ideal FATHER.. uh.. I shouldn’t write too much about my dad kasi I find him good enough for me.. For as long as he understands me.. That is going to be alright. Uh... hmm… let me see.. My father is

1. RELIGIOUS
2. SWEET
3. HE UNDERSTANDS ME
4. FUNNY
5. SOMETIMES ANNOYING (but its okei!)

But even though sometimes he’s UNDER my mom… I think he’s great. Basta, dad ko kasi kapag sakanya ka magpaalam ok lang sakanya basta alam niya na SAFE ka. Naiintindihan ako. Pero nakikita ko kasi parang hindi siya mashadong expressive?! Im quite not sure pero parang ganun kasi yung nakikita ko.nagegets niya ako.. parang buti pa siya. Naiintindihan ako.. in short alam ko na napagdaanan niya din yung mga pinagdadaanan ko ngayon. Meron shang feelings… ano ba yung term?!?!?! Hmm… OPEN-MINDED (EXACTLY!) yup! Yun yung term! Open minded siya… hindi siya katulad ng iba na gusto niya yung anak niya nasa isang box lang! nasa sulok! Nagmumukmok! Ang hirap kasi eh! Ako… feeling ko ganun ako ngayon eh! Salamat nga sa mga kaibigan ko kahit na hindi ako nakakasama sa mga alis alis nila nandyan padin sila for me. And naiintindihan nila ako.minsan nga pati sila napapatanong eh bakit ba ganyan yung parents mo?! Shempre hindi ko sila masagot kasi hindi ko din alam kung bakit.. anyways. Mamaya na yung sa buhay ko.. now lets go to my mom…

Hmm.. mom ko.?!. oh! ask my friends! Nagaway na kami dati.. and ayaw ko na ulit mangyari yun.. pero based on what I’m seeing now.. feeling ko mangyayari nanaman yun… parang wala kasi xang patience, napapansin ko lang na saakin lang naman .. gets ko yung point nila na nahihirapan din sila sa buhay ngayon.. kasi let’s face it totoo naman eh! Alam ko madaming problema sa bahay.. pero sana naman they should learn how to balance yung sa HOME and yung sa HOUSE. Sana magets nila na hindi lang sa money umiikot yung buhay.. sana siya ganun.. mahigpit man siya sa sisters ko.. pansin ko sakin parang sinasakal na ako…haay.. sana mabasa nila tong post ko na to kasi ayaw ko dumating sa point na magrebelde ako… alam ko na ayaw din nilamagets nila na hindi lang dapat yung mga bright sides ng buhay yung palaging nakikita. Dapat matuto din sila na maintindihan kami. Kasi kami naman hindi kami umaangal sa kanila. Pero still sana naman marealize nila na may mga mali din sila! Kasi nasasaktan kami kapag bigla kaming napapagalitan. Why can’t we be a family katulad ng sa iba. Yung caring sila, sweet, sobrang close… yung nakakpag open up sila sa isa’t-isa. Naiingit ako sakanila eh kasi ever since I was a kid yun lang talaga yung ginusto ko mangyari sa pamilya naming na to. Pero it seems like walang nagyayari. Alam mo yun I’m trying to put my best foot forward para naman makita nila na willing ako. Pero it seems like wala din eh kasi hindi naman lahat sila nacocooperate. Haay naku! Hmm.. sana naman naiintidihan nila ako kahit papano kasi sobrangkailangn ko tulong nila. Sana naman willing silang making pero sa nakikita ko wala nanaman silang time para saamin! Dun ako naasar! Wala silang time para magsabi na tara labas tayo.. mall tayo.. or kahit window shopping lang basta lang makalabas kami sa bahay na to. Alam ko kapag gagawin yun madaming gagawin.. kasi yung car etc. pero still sana naman kasi meron din naman kaming mga needs na kailangan masatisfy. Nasasaktan kami kapag alis sila ng alis kahit sa grocery nalang hindi pa kami sinama?! Im not pointing na kailangan kami isama sa mga ganun.. yung gusto ko lang may time sila para sa amin! Kasi nakakainggit silang lahat! Alam ko may mga conflicts sila against each other pero sana lang naman magets nila na lahat ng tao may mga feelings! Hindi kami mga robots. Parang ang sarcastic nga eh.. kasi they belong to a group of community na ang babait and all pero kapg kaharap sila ang ganda ng buhay parang ang colorful pag wala na.. balik sa madilim.. its all black.. kaya nga ako… mas prefer ko na nasa labas eh with my friends kasi wala naman akong napapala dito. Kaya nga gets ko si ate iya eh.. siya nakakalabas ng bahay every weekend.. bonding with friends.. tas babalik siya dito para magshower tas pasok na ulit sa work. Mas masaya pa sa labas ng bahay kasi nakakikita ko pa ng mga taong tumatawa.. nakikipag biroan pa sayo.. nakakakuha ka pa ng warm hug sakanila… nakikiss mo pa sila sa cheeks.. napagsasabihan mo pa sila ng kung ano ano. Nalalabas mo yung opinion mo regarding different things in life! Napapakikita mo kung sino ka talaga.. haay naku! Sana lang talaga mabasa nila toh… im just being expressive kasi this is what I feel now.. actually ever since pa naman e. ngayon lang ako nakapagwrite kasi ngayon lang ako nagkaguts para masabi to. Sana malaman nila na may blog ako. Sana malaman nila na yung isa nilang anak hindi na natutuwa sa mga nangyayari sa buhay niya kasi parang prisoner na siya. Sana mabasa na nila toh. Alam ko na all they wanted for us is magandang future and magandang buhay. Pero kung ngayon palang ganto na nararamdaman ko what more next year?! Or the following years or sa future ko.. for sure ayaw ko naman na maranasan toh ng magiging anak ko.. Gusto ko ngayon palang maagapan na toh kasi hindi na siya maganda. Sana maging aware sila sa mga stuffs if they could just get into my shoes and see how my life is.. kung masaya ba katulad ng iniisip nila. Ang dami ko pang gustong maranasan, nad dami ko pang gusting mangyari sa buhay ko ngayon, kasi ayaw kong lumaki ng inosente! Ayaw ko ng lumaki katulad ng iba na walang alam sa buhay o kaya ayaw kong lumaki na malungkot. Gusto ko, masaya, matino, maypatutunguhan may mangyayari.. to be honest hindi ko na alam gagawin ko naun kasi ang daming pumapasok sa buhay ko na kailangan ko ng assistance nila, kahit na sabihin natin na mababaw pero still.. yung presence ng magulang na nagguide sayo yung palang parang achievement n eh. Kasi feeling ko kapag tinanong sila about me sasagot lang nala ok lang siya she’s doing great.. maayos naman buhay.. pero deep inside hindi nila alam na naguguluhan na pala ako.. hindi nila alm na nasasaktan na pla ako.. hindi nila alm na si Rianne magulo na yung buhay. Haay.. basta.. yun na yun… sana mabasa na nila to..

Actually hindi naman dapat ganito yung fORMat ng post ko ngayon eh… ewan ko ba sinipag ako magtype! Hehe. Haay! Sarap ng feeling na nailabas mo na siya kahit papano…

IDEAL PARENTS:
1. one who understands
2. yung may time para sa mga anak
3. hindi nagsisigaw
4. may mahaba na patience sa mga anak

SIGE NA NAGAGALIT NA NANAY KO EH!

yeah! post post post!!!!! hay naku! i miss posting! hmm.. kakatamad nga lang mag type so aiun naun lng ako ulit ginanahan magpost! anyway!! waa!! exam week na!! i haven't opened any notebook yet! kahit scan lang or glance! wala talaga! all i do is eat, sleep, text, phone!, TV! lahat ng mga LAZY stuff nagawa ko na! well.. uh?! somewone told me about something so kailangn ko yun maayos! haayy.. naku this past few days.. lakas ng trip ni elge! hehe.. oh well ayus lang yun at least she's happy! hehe..

gusto ko na ulit mag-guitar namimiss ko na.. feeling ko di na ako marunong ng basics! hehe...

(kala mo naman magaling?!)Ü

oh well.. basta SUMMER na.. GOODBYE schooL!!! HELLO:

1. BEACH!!!!!!!!!

2.FOOD

3.COMFY BED!!!!!!

4.INTERNET/COMPUTER!!!!

5.HELLO SUMMERJOB!!! ;p

oh well!! uh have to go..

-IGATAP!-

update! well.. i went to the formal dinner last march 2.. it went well.. uh.. saya ng day na un.. bonding with my freinds! no pics ako.. i'll ask pa from them.. anyway.. thanks angel for the top and the flats.. thanks cha for the top! damn! isa na akong tunay na girl! hehe... my skirt was black the may style na parang pa slant yung cut.. then may konting ruffles.. my slippers was flat then may sequins na silver... (oh diba?!, shinning shimmering!)... then yung top ko.. its blue an may black then its v-neck tas i just wore a yellow tube to cover my thingie! hehe... aiun... i'll try to take a pic of the clothes later.. neways.. that's about it...

boring dito sa house.. sobra! then my sister, mikee, is here beside me.. as usual.. reading nanaman my stuff! anyways... ayan na concius na xa! oh wel!!

later na yung mga post ng pics!

Once, there was this kid. She had a wonderful life. She had friends that she knew would treasure her for the rest of her life. Suddenly, her parents decided to move somewhere far away from her friends. After 5 months, her parents decided to go back to their place. Then the girl was so happy. She had so many plans in her mind that she wanted to do with her friends. Then when trying to enroll they told her that she was too late for enrollment. Suddenly all the plans that she thought of doing was dumped straight to the bin. Her eyes went teary. Her friends really wanted to cheer her up. No one wanted to see her sad. As time passed by, she, herself, realized that nothing will happen to her if she’ll just be in that box. Pushing herself down more and more each day, thinking that her life is a mess. Then the next school year came and that girl wasn’t with her friends any more. She was so hurt seeing her friends in the same room sharing ideas about someone while she was alone and in the dark. The tried pretending that she was pretty much okay with what’s happening. She would even wore that same mask each day just to let people know that she’s fine and she’s ok. Then all of a sudden, she realized that she should not be wearing any mask instead she should face her own problem and try to imply to herself what she use to say to others. Then inside her chamber, she met new friends. There she started to realize that its not bad meeting new friends. In the chamber, she had 3 great friends. Each has their own thing that the kid liked. Then outside the chamber, she has a lot more. The girl was so scared to express what she feels to the others because she was so shy to tell. Then the girl found someone that she knew would understand her. As time passed by, they were so close. Then came a point when one was upset. The kid and her friend got really curious so they went and talked to the girl and said “what’s the problem?!” then the girl reasoned out. The kid understood the girl who explained and now the kid was so conscious on what to do. The kid feels that she should end the relationship with the friend because she feels that she’s the reason why everything went into a mess. She kid felt so upset. Then she realized that her friends from the higher level was there always for her no matter what. Now the kid was so touched because one of them promised the kid that she would never leave her looking sad and alone! The kid was so thankful that she had friends like them! Now, the kid is crying because she feels so comforted by those people, she was so touched by what she saw. Now her relationship with her friends are so strong. In addition, she’s really thankful for that. Now the kid thinks that everything is all right but the wall between her and the friend is this there. And the kid feels that’s how it should be.